this is my resolution;i'm crying out

ive thought things over. and its hard enough not being able to be in control of the situation, i have to deal and bear with the fact that her smile is the only thing i want to see every single day. her eyes are bright as i stare into them and that makes me realise that she is the one that ive wanted from day one. i told myself to let go. i've pleaded with myself to let it be. but i dont think its ever going to happen. and i dont want it to ever happen. thinking things over, and deciding that im not going to let things fade without me putting up a fight. ive lost a battle, but the war is still far and long from over. it isnt over. you know it. and i know it. im giving myself a fighting chance. and i hope you will to.